I've been childish, foolish and stupid very often recently. The worst facet of it that makes me an imbecile is that I knew all the while I was being those things. Maybe, that is what separates me from kids who would do it innocently. Its time I start acting my age. Oh! That counter keeps ticking away rapidly. So hard to catch up. Sigh!
Ideas turning to Tripe
I've somehow taken to writing a lot lately. Most of it goes to my Twitter account, some of it to my Flickr album and the rest of the tripe is stored in my mobile. All of them were meant to be put in here - my favourite jaunt - my personal space. None of them made it. What I did in the previous post was atrocious. Just picked up a few Haikus I wrote on Twitter and stuffed them together. All written at different times, with different feelings. When clubbed together they look so ugly - Divided they stand, United they fall - miserably.
I am just a Worthless liar - Sober (Tool)
What I did was Cheating. Cheating with my own work. They deserved more attention, to be thought over well and placed coherently in apt situations. Sometimes Ideas hit me and I begin jotting them down. Halfway down, the urge to complete it so high, that I cheat again. The rest of the work is like a drivel, taking away the charm of the whole work. What I realise is that every time I cheat my thoughts, it shows glaringly. Again the Imbecile.
Solemn Promise
I know New Year is around the corner and everyone is wild conjuring up resolutions. Here is mine. I Promise not to cheat with my work. I promise to complete it patiently. I vow to quit my childish pursuits (even though my poetic secrets shall be hampered). I promise to have more self-restraint.
Remains to be seen how much will-power I truly possess.
Monsoon in the Western Ghats
2 days ago
6 comments:
Creativity is the hardest thing and also very personal. My own experience is that you should not have restraints. I am normally a disciplined person due to my training and background which is reflected in my brief (i think) style of writing.
But to be creative, you have to break all rules. And also write for yourself and not be afraid to be judged negatively. Initially it might be tough but gradually perhaps you will develop your own style which you are comfortable with.
Ofcourse, these are my opinion and I can hardly claim anything original or creative so far. But just sharing what I feel should be done for creativity.
This ofcourse does not mean having grand notions of your talent but it also does not mean denigrating yourself. Just work and produce and see how things go.
I hope I pakaued you!
Oh! Certainly not. You have not pakaued at all! I am in complete agreement with your insights on harbouring creativity. No inhibitions, no thoughts on the reactions/criticism.
Only point I'm not really certain about is the writing style. I think my style gets influenced by the type of author I'm reading. Even after 5 years of blogging, I don't believe I've managed to develop a writing style to call my own as yet. But that's the best part, so many new things to try ! :).
I will most certainly keep in mind your thoughts on creativity when I write. Thanks.
I go through the same thing, and I can't say that I've reached any sort of compromise. The only time you don't crash from the high is if the work is good, and good work demands time or luck.
Back in my creative days, what I hated the most and also loved and also now miss is how engrossing it ccould get. I remember how I used to sit in front of my computers trying hard to create 3d models, map them, create textures for them and all for the fun of it. For the fun of being a part of the team trying to do something for the fun of it. It's a pity those days are gone. But it's good, too. For many reasons, I can't even start to comprehend.
As far as style of creativity is concerned, it's alright to have a varying style because you are writing for yourself and you don't have to worry about setting expectations, which, when the time comes, is a real bitch.
@JMH:
I'm in agreement. If the work is good, you keep going back to it and sometimes wonder "Did I do this?"! Yes! Work demands time, how true! If it turns out fine, it is worth every second!
@Srinath: (82 kgs: How long will you stick your weight. Lose it!)
Why do you think your creative days are behind you? I've seen your work on Flickr. I've seen your passion on the photowalks. If you don't live up to the standards you set for yourself, its just a phase.
What's this 3-D mapping textures stuff? Eager to know about your team!
I was part of an online team creating sub-games for Unreal Tournament 2004. I had to leave it after a short stint.
Yes, photography is creative too. But 3-D modeling is a different experience altogether. You are creating something from the scratch. It involved imagination, skill, know-how. Although, photography also involves all of it, the way they comes together to give final result is very different. I'll explaing the details when we meet next. Very elaborate stuff...
Setting standards for self is different from others setting standards for you, right? Let's face it, we're not public figures of any scale to think about it. When you do what you love for the love you hvae it and set standards for yourself, you have one liberty in hand that is very crucial - freedom of expression. By that, I mean the freedom to express what you want, the way you want it without worrying about others.
Well, I'm using OpenID to leave comments and that takes the username and not real name :(
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